She was gone, finally she was gone. The dead woman who had tortured and terrorized our family for the past 8 years was no more. However, there was one more thing we had to do. An act of kindness which would prove difficult to stomach after all she had done to us. We had to do a memorial for her at a place where she may had been buried prior to being moved to a cemetery near us. That place was on the Southwest corner of our land. Maybe she wasn't moved at all; maybe she was still under that huge oak tree; maybe just a headstone was placed at the cemetery. We will never truly know but what we did know was she was buried somewhere close to us.
The Reiki made it clear that the memorial was something we must do to avoid any possibility of her coming back. It would finally close the door to our suffering. She told us we needed to do it that same evening, at sunset. She said if she was still lingering she would be weak. She would know that control had shifted to us. So doing the memorial that evening would dash any hope she had of returning.
Still overwhelmed by what had just happened, the Reiki helped us with some calming and meditation exercises. She wanted to give us some strength so we could do what we needed to done . After she felt we were up to our next task, she was comfortable with leaving.
"I feel you're ready now. You're stronger than you were when I arrived. This will be difficult emotionally for you, but it's the final step." She said to us as we walked her to the door.
"Your next journey now begins. The healing. It will take time and just as much strength. You will have set backs, you may have visitors. But you're more prepared than you were before. Learn and understand your abilities. Don't shy away from them. They're gifts you can use to protect yourself." She went on to say.
"Heidi has a gift, a strong gift. She needs to understand it & how to control it. It can be a blessing or curse for her. Work hard to make it a blessing." She added as she opened her car door.
These words have been burned into my memory every since.
She never asked for money-not one dime. Even when we asked her if we needed to pay her, she said no. However, we insisted she take $100 for her time. She took it, but was reluctant in doing so.
Sunset was coming and we were hurrying in putting a memorial service together. We decided to keep it simple. No heavy handed words would be spoken. We would each say something but would keep short.
We went as a family carrying a candle, some flowers, and a pocket Bible. It was a long walk to the spot but it felt like walk of freedom for us. We all felt a sense of relief that this dark part of our lives was over. We could finally be a happy and loving family again. It had been a long time since we were one.
As we got the grave site, none of us said a word. Heidi placed the flowers down near the headstone. I placed the candle close to them.
"Can I light it Daddy?", Emi asked me.
"Of course." I answered.
As Emi lite the candle, I begin to speak. I told Etta that I hoped she was finally at peace. I hoped that she found love, hope, and happiness. Even though it was very difficult for me to say, I told her that I forgave her.
Jennifer, Heidi, and Emi all said something similar. Each one of them ended with a word of forgiveness.
We finished by saying the Lord's Prayer. That was it, we were done.
The sun was setting as we made our way back to the house. As I looked back, I could see the candle flickering rapidly. Then, in an instant, it went out.
I remembered thinking as I closed the gate to the Way Back pasture, "Goodbye and good riddance Etta. All bad things must come to an end."
Wow! What a journey! Thank you for sharing it with us.ReplyDelete
Thanks for reading! I am debating on continuing the story of what we've continue to experience, how we've recovered, and what we continue to do to protect ourselves.Delete
I would be interested in hearing about it! :) Thank you for sharing everything so far. I’m always so interested in the families on the show and what happens after. I’m sorry you all have suffered so much, but am glad it is all turning around!ReplyDelete
Thanks! There is still more to our story so I am planning on future post.Delete
I too would be very interested in hearing more about your story. Thank you for sharing.ReplyDelete