The comment below to our most recent blog entry really made me think.
"It's interesting to realize you were always OPEN to the paranormal. I too had a few small things that happened to me in the past. Nothing big like seeing someone, like you. I had just heard my name called in my ear a couple of times, but it showed me, as I look back, that I was OPEN for the experience I had when I moved into the house I live in now that came with it's own ghost! Do you think people who have never had any experiences, don't believe in such things, are TOTALLY closed minded, would have any such experience with the paranormal if they weren't open to it? Could they have lived in your house or mine and NEVER seen or heard ANYTHING? Hmmm. Great post, Love reading everything you write!"
First, I have to says thanks for the compliment. I do not consider myself a writer at all and it always makes me smile when someone enjoys reading what I write. At the end of the day, I'm just telling our story; hoping that it will continue to help in our recovery but also help others who are experiencing something similar.
When our experiences where at it's heights, I often wondered if the people who lived in our house/land before us ever experience anything. I thought to myself they had to have something happen because what was going on was so obvious to us.
The owners previous to us lived in the house for 15 years. I was certain that if they lived here that long that they had to have witnessed something. The previous owner is actually our insurance agent so one day I reached out to him. It was difficult for me to start the conversation because, let's face it, it sounded crazy and insane. However we have a good relationship so I was able to bring it up fairly easily. Surprisingly he didn't think I was crazy and was open minded. He said they never experienced anything out of the ordinary. He thought long and hard about it before he answered completely. I could tell he was really trying to remember. That gave me some solace that at least he was willing to dig through his memories to try to help. In the end, he couldn't recall anything. He told me he would ask his wife and daughters if they had any weird things happened but unfortunately a few days later he let me know that they hadn't. Since the owners before them had passed away, I couldn't talk to them and was left with more questions than answers.
I continued trying to rationalize what was happening. Given that we seemed to be the only ones who had ever experienced paranormal activity here left me questioning our mental health. Were we just crazy or was their something else causing our meltdown? The logical next step was to check for something material that could cause this nightmare; mold, radon, carbon monoxide, etc? I read back through the home inspection, nothing...nothing that would explain what was happening. No mold. No radon. No carbon monoxide. No lead. Nothing that would explain our mental health decline or deterioration of our physical health.
I was out of logical explanations options at this point How could we see things that others could not? How is that possible?
We are different
I finally accepted that what were experiencing was real. I began to realize that we were "different", not crazy. We saw the world differently than others. Not only were we different than others, we are also different within our family unit. Some of us are Empaths. Some, Sensitives. Some, Mediums. Also, we all have some sort of Psychic Ability with each one being different. We were the perfect recipe for the paranormal.
The problem with this is we didn't understand what we were which meant we had no clue why things were happening to us. It was similar to being on a runaway horse. Since we absolutely no understand of why we were paranormal targets, we couldn't stop it.
We finally began to realized who and what we were. It took being on The Dead Files to finally get the answers we needed to understand. Without Amy Allan's help and guidance during our episodes reveal, I often think that we were heading down path of destruction. (You can read about the full story of our episode's reveal in these blog entries. The Reveal: Part One, The Reveal: Part Two, The Reveal: Part Three, The Reveal: Part Four.)
I think everyone has abilities but they have to realize and accept them in order to experience things. It's all because people are closed minded. I feel there are 3 types of closed minded people.
- Those who are closed minded because they refuse to believe.
- Those who are closed without realizing their closed.
- Those that unintentionally close themselves.